Who needs to escape life with TV when real-life awareness becomes better than TV? Nobody. That is the point of this article. Oh, when life is “bad”, “everything on TV looks better”. In fact though, my question is, what if real life was better than TV and everything was the opposite of what this current civilization offers? That is a great question for me. Because, all my life, I’ve never fit into this world and had an incredible sense of theatrics in real life instead of trying to be “normal.” I have always wanted life to be theater and exciting instead of living in a boring way and then seeing everything on TV, movies and media. In short, I want to play, not be a spoiled “paying spectator” watching the action. I want to be in the reality of the action, not look at it, and have “joyful feelings” vicariously, and then “come back to reality.”
Personally, I want my reality to be an opera of grandeur instead of a boring and pointless “earnings exercise” like most people. I don’t just want to invert, I want to really live and theatrically control the entire scene front and back. I want consciousness to fulfill itself in an autonomous way, that doesn’t need “fuel” or external things to make it work.
Strangely, I’ve always leaned toward the dramatic in reality rather than “settle for nonsense.” I’ve always loved larger than life over normal anyway. Most people want a show and then they go home. Well, I want the show to be real, to satisfy life on every level instead of relegating “madness” to a “subconscious dissatisfied dump” while lying through my consciousness about my nature, my life, and my reality. After all, why do you think so many “normal” people watch because they chase the news or “get off” on the bad news and then bury their frustrations deeper and deeper with more lies about how “normal” they are?
I may be a bit too honest about it or a bit too “freak of nature” in some respects. But what are those normal, mystical people who genuinely lie to themselves? The honest truth is always there no matter how much it is denied, hidden, belittled, rejected and feared. It is always there.